I enter the school campus nodding.  I don’t want to see someone.  I hate the world that time.  Good thing I have a high school friend their and fortunately we became classmates.

The first day of school that time was Wednesday.  Thursday and Friday passed and my new school was great, not as I expect.  Saturday comes; I was enrolled on a certain subject that required us to be back that day.  While waiting for some instructions, I stayed at the back part of our school’s gymnasium.  As I glance at the entrance, I saw a guy who was on his blues sweatshirt and on skinny jeans.  He looks weird on his outfit.  He look at me fiercely so I ignore him.  He doesn’t even look attractive but it seems I always saw his face flashing on my mind.

After out orientation I drop by to my favorite hangout, internet cafe.  The guy that I saw at the gymnasium was there and I thought it was God’s will that he seated beside me.  I was overwhelmed when I heard him sing on of my favorite songs.  I glance at his computer and I saw his name on his webpage.  He is Bryan.  Nice name for a guy like him.

I didn’t give much attention to that.  I thought it was all a coincidence.  But I was wrong, after that day I always saw him.  Wherever I go, we always cross roads.  I can’t understand what’s happening.

One day, as I’m nodding and walking alone on our school’s corridor, he approached me and asks for my name.  I didn’t answer him immediately.  I’m trying to deceive him but he really insists for my name.  He looks serious so I introduce myself to him.

After that, we are formally aware of each other.  He doesn’t even remember that we were together last Saturday.  I think maybe he has a king of a memory lose (kidding).

He always greets me ‘hi’ whenever he saw me.  He often waits me after my class and we walk together from the campus to the town.  I am so lucky to know someone like him.

He always makes me happy and I enjoy being with him. 

Weeks after that, I had a late enrollee classmate.  He is silent.  He does not speak or talk a lot.  He looks behave and simple.  I immediately got a crush on him because I like his eyes.  I thought I am so unreasonable about it. 

I was surprised to know that Bryan and my new classmate used to be staying at the same school on their high school and used to be sharing a little friendship. 

Bryan continue the things he already started on me.  We use to talk about are days and moments at the school.  I was sorry to know that he comes from a broken family.  I know a lot of things about him because he is too vocal about his personal life which I like most.

One day, a classmate of mine revealed that our new classmate is attracted on me.  I just laugh but inside of me, I’m so flattered.  Because of knowing that he is attracted on me, I didn’t hesitate to write on my classmate’s slum note that I am attracted on him, too.  We our tease to each other but I feel that there’s something going wrong.  I’m supposed to be feeling awesome but I feel awful.  He asks for my picture and I didn’t hesitate to give him one.  We just found ourselves texting and exchanging ‘testi’ on our FS account. But, honestly, I’m not at ease on what is happening.

One day, Bryan told me that he has something important to say.  He wanted to tell this privately.  But I lie on him.  I made an alibi because my crush and I are going to ‘get-to-know-each-other thing’. 

That time, I treated Bryan like a rag.  I forced myself to talk to him nonsense.  I forced myself to forget about him.  I must evade him, I must forget that I know someone like him.  But why should I? I’m so puzzled.  My friends are telling me that he’s a no good, he’s a lousy.  They told me I better avoid him and focus my attention to my new classmate who wanted to court me.  I followed my classmates’ opinion not knowing I better consult myself first.  I do everything just to make Bryan mad at me.  But still, he forced his self on me.  He ignores everything that I done on him.  I’m so please on what he is doing, besides my conscience is killing me.  I want to say sorry on him but it’s too late. 

I noticed that he lose giving his attention on me.  He seems to be different.  He changes, I thought.  He talks to me rarely.  We see each other rarely.  Everything happens rarely.  Until one day I found myself sitting alone, walking to the town alone.  No one to laugh with, no one to talk to.  I feel incomplete.  Everything seems obnoxious; everything seems so empty without his presence. 

Now, we use to see each other at the campus.  Still, he smiles.  Still, he talks.  But it’s all happening rarely.  And he doesn’t wait me anymore, I go home alone.

I don’t know exactly what we are really and his intentions why we became that kind a close.  Maybe we are on a process of being friends and some unexplainable reasons why he had to be with me always.  But we didn’t make it ‘till the end.  He vanish quickly, he just pass and fleet without saying anything. 

It’s a big lose.

By now, I’m hoping he’d realize that there’s someone who’s hurt and he’s the only cure.  How I wish he’ll be back, he’ll continue to share a part of his life to someone who longs for his presence.  To someone who learn to give him importance and to someone who learn to love him beyond the limits.